Praise God for a beautiful, spring-y day! What a welcome respite for all of us northerners! (My parents-in law come this friday from Florida, maybe they'll bring spring with them!!)
Lately, in light of some of my recent entries, I've been hearing the still small voice of God in gentle promptings. Thankfulness, contentment, showing love...these are huge issues for me. Only a humble heart can mirror these things. I am increasingly aware that my lack of love is sticking out like a sore thumb, or a "clanging cymbal."
I can become so weary of homeschooling somedays, I'm not sure I can keep going. My steadfastness and faith wavers. Talking to Tina (Thanks dear friend!) yesterday was a big help, as well as getting back in contact with a friend from the past who just started homeschooling her 3rd-grader this year (Love ya Heather!). These conversations have boosted me to re-evaluate some of what I'm doing with my girls. Fresh perpective to go along with a fresh time of year is so, well....refreshing!
But I have to say hands down one of the most blessed "voice of God" moments was last night at home. 3/5's of us were sick, so we did not attend our Sunday meeting (church), which I had been looking forward to. Instead, we gathered everyone around the piano and Keith led us in a time of family worship. Each of us got to pick our favorite worship song. I have never heard such precious children's voices as my 3 little girls' last night. Kara's pick was:
"Gracious and astounding, God's love so confounding appears to us, in a crimson flow of blood. The Son left throne and glory, bore the Father's wrath and fury in our stead, and for the sins of all He bled....Stand in awe and Worship, Raise a Voice in Worship come Adore, The King of Kings and Lord of Lords."
This stood out to me because the theology is rich and our girls knew the words!
My pick was "Give Me Jesus" which is on my list for what I want at my funeral...done in the Fernando Ortega style. These little girls sounded so angelic...each taking a verse to sing as a solo, and the rest of us joining in on the chorus. Keith and I definitely had tears in our eyes.
It was at that moment that I realized how Blessed we were. That God has entrusted us with these little ones. It was humbling and promoted thanfulness in my heart. These little ones were worshipping God. You should have been here!
Yes, life is hard. Yes, there always seems to be more needing done than time to do it in. Yes, I am going to fail. But God's love is surrounding me. He calls to me in the hardships, whispers in the sweetness, but all of it is blessing. He alone knows exactly the mixture of both that I need in order to stay reliant on Him. That only shows His care all the more. I am a blessed woman.
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Hey Kristin!
Please tell Keith that I send my greetings of a happy belated Birthday wish.
God speaks to all of us gently(and loudly) on issues we have. We all have our issues we need to deal with, just different ones. I know I've been reminded frequently lately about my need to be more humble. sometimes it can be so hard. Psalm 149:4 "For the lord takes pleasure in his people, he adorns the humble with victory." James 4:10 "Humble yourselves before the Lord and he will exalt you."
Remember that when we become weary and feel that we can't go on the Lord will give us his strength. Remember the very weary times that the Lord used you in my life as my prayer partner here in New York during some pretty weary times for me? He uses people in our lives to inspire and help us through him and his direction. I made it through and you will too. remember that the Lord tells us "TO LOVE ONE ANOTHER AS I HAVE LOVED YOU." It can be very difficult at times but ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE WITH GOD, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLEWITH GOD!
I rejoice with you, and very happy to hear of the blessings of the privilege of having your very young children loving the lord so deeply. The Lord wanted to show you the blessings you have through your children. Praise God!
As we listen very closely to God as to what he is saying to us we can never go wrong.
I Miss you guys and Love you!
Love,
Tina C
It was SO good talking with you the other day Kristen and I love that it felt that not much time had passed even though its been years! There are just some people in life that we have that connection with and it was wonderful to chat like that!
I'm sorry you are weary with homeschooling...I hear you loud and clear though! Something that I heard once that was very profound to me was that God didn't call us to homeschool our children for them...it is us that He has things to teach us through this experience and our children just get to benefit from that! I just loved that when I heard it as I have learned so much about myself in this year and God has met me in ways I haven't seen in a long time. So hang in there and just keep leaning into Him!
Love the sweetness that you all had around the piano too! Moments like that just can't be taken for granted.
Steve and I would so love to come visit with you all so much! The friend I have that grew up in Lancaster is actually coming up in the spring for a week to see her brothers and I told her I may ride along and see my friends! So you may have me and Kiersten on your doorstep sometime in the spring if you don't mind!!! ;)
Love to you and your family!
I think its neat that I sent you that devotion the other day, not knowing you were in a weary state about homeschooling. God is good to put thoughts of people we can share with, even if we don't know why! By the way, the lesson on Sunday is how God is good!! (And he is.)
PS I wish I had been there to hear them sing. Our kids sing "Holy God" (I dont think its called that!), and it is so precious.
So you disappeared from blog world just when I get in touch with ya?! Just had to joke with you! Hope you are well and having a good March! ;)
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