Gravity or Levity?

Gravity: " 1. the force of attraction by which terrestrial bodies tend to fall toward the center of the earth. 2. heaviness or weight. 3. gravitation in general. 4. seriousness; dignity; solemnity 5. serious or critical character. 6. lowness in, pitch as of sounds." Levity: "1. lightness of mind, charater, or behavior; lack of proper seriousness or earnestness. 2. an instance or exhibition of this. 3. fickleness. 4. lightness in weight." The American college Dictionary

Which is better, gravity or levity? Because I'm struggling with these two. I believe the Bible calls me to both, but I don't do very well with balance in my life. You see, lately, I've been watching people here. Lancaster people. Women. Perhaps I am fooled, but it seems as though the women I'm watching have a holy levity in their lives that I do not. They seem to take (or make) time for things I might consider superfluous. Yet these are the very things that make life more meaningful and beauteous here on earth. Like making good food from scratch, growing vegetables, taking beautiful pictures of their children at play. Creating spaces in their homes that are not only lovely to look at, but are functional and efficient. And these things seem to absolutely be the norm, not the exception to their days. To me, these feel like luxuries in many ways. Efficiency in my life often kills all the beauty. When I pick one project to work on, it inevitably kills the time I would use for other endeavors. This past week I decided it was time to clean out all the old toys. But, wanting to be a good steward, I decided to clean them up, photograph them all, and itemize them for sale on Craigslist. Although I did make $60, it wreaked havoc on other parts of life. I injured my foot badly on day 1 of my endeavor, and spent the rest of the week limping around, trying to carryout my plans. Not efficient. I am currently trying to finish off the girls' homeschool portfolios, continuing to clean out old toys, help out some friends, and researching new curriculum for the fall. What I'd love to be doing is: repainting parts of the house, re-learning to sew, working on family scrapbooks, playing with my children, and writing more.

The reason I just decided to take 20 minutes and type up this entry is because my father-in-law specifically asked me to try and blog when we got home from Florida! (It's been almost a month now!) I guess what I'm asking, and praying honestly before the Lord is "What should these days of summer with my children look like, Lord? My heart yearns for one set of things,(levity), but real-life needs and "must-do's" pull me to gravity." I am so aware that my girls are quickly growing up. Keaton is now 11 and 1/3 years old. Only 7 more years before she's an adult. What do I want her to remember about home? What do I want her to take with her into adulthood? More gravity or levity? Lord, help me to find the balance in this life. I know it's not meant for us to have ease and beauty all of the time. Heaven is in our hearts, and we will long for it all of our days on earth. But help me, Lord, to find ways to bring the beauty you've created, the peace, and rest you give into my home. Not just through the things I do, but through the woman I am, through the attitude I carry. Bless this home with your love, peace, comfort, and rest. Amen.